Change
Transformation
Renewal
Those words have been on my mind… have etched themselves deeper into it’s forefront. I wrote them down in a list–wrote them as they came and, as I read them back I realized they had come in the order of their natural progression in life. Change….
Most of my life, I have feared change. More clearly, I have feared feeling caught off guard, or pitiful… helpless. I have put lots of energy into armoring myself against change. A behavior which has left me, at times maddeningly paralyzed.
As I put my face into my own pensieve I realize that those innate feelings are rooted in occurrences from my childhood–things were, then they weren’t. Then they were and then they weren’t again… Reflecting on these things does not lead me down a path of blame but one that’s helpful, one that’s landscaped with ah-ha’s…. Ah-ha’s are comforting. I like ah-ha’s…..
Today, I sense it coming. I sense change like I sense the seasons…
“Something you feel will find it’s own form”
Today I feel that I am open to that form…
“Be open to everything, submissive, listening”
And today I feel I might be removing, rather than hunkering into rackety clackety armour
“Be crazy dumbsaint of the mind”
Change, Transformation, Renewal……
Sonic Drops 
you’re so right about moments of ‘flux’ being the most honest and pure….. also the most sincere and unassuming….
perhaps it’s because we’ve silenced the constant rattle (or closed our ears to it) and have fully submitted to what happens next… we can no longer guess…. we can no longer flail against it… we can only exist–flow outward and fall around the pattern….
which leads me to my own 1st commandment, which is not actually a commandment but i’d like it to be…
Romans 12:2: Do not conform any longer to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind
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